They say all dogs go to heaven?
When they die, of course.
I am no lover of dogs for I have never been brought up with one and I do not particularly have any feelings towards them.
But it's not the same with daddy Lau.
He has always loved dogs and knew much about them from young. So when I married him, I was naturally introducing dogs into my life too. It has been a long while; 30 years. For most years we had at least a dog in the home and for me it was a love-hate relationship. I don't like looking after them and bathing them but most of all going to the supermarket to shop for their food. Allie would pester me left right and center till there is enough food in the pantry for them. Dogs are to look after their masters but sometimes it may be the other way round. Looking after dogs is sad especially when they become sick and die.
This is the species of dog that we first had. The Spitz was called Sunny. See, so white and beautiful. The pedigree was loving and had doe-shaped eyes. Sunny grew and stayed alive with us for 3 years before we had to release him to sickness.It developed sores all over the body and the hair kept dropping till I did not know what to do. When it was sick, daddy was attached to a job in Singapore and it was tough looking after it and our new born baby, Grace.There was no house help then and so the vet had to put him down. Those eyes haunted me for weeks when I left it at the vet. Heartbreaking.
We decided not to have a dog for a while until the need arose. You may not believe it but it was true that we had to have one when I had to ward off ill-disciplined students. So we went to a trained dog center and bought a German shepherd. So handsome and reliable.Yes she was named Loobie.The trained dog was a gem.She understood her master perfectly. She was not the type to run out of the gate without approval.She manned the security of the home well and understood our instruction. It was a pleasure to have her. Even I, who had no feelings could grow fond of her. But this species has hind leg problems.So after aging, she naturally limped and found extreme difficulty moving around and sores developed too. I think when sores start to develop it is a symptom of death. She suffered. So again a decision to send him to the vet had to be made. Losing Loobie who was with us for about 10 years is one of the greatest loss we ever had in a guard. Till this day Allie would recall how sad the day was when she had to be put down.
We also had a Dalmatian; Tabby. A pretty dog but alas it was deaf. We discovered it only after inheriting in from grandma Lau. This one was not so disciplined; the difference between a trained and untrained dog.She not only was a flighty one but did not seem to be able to follow instructions.So after a couple of years with us we sent her back to grandma Lau. We did not see it go but we heard that it died after a while.
A pretty dog but not good as a watch dog.
At home now, it is this species we have. There was a pair, Adam and Piper. Piper came when she was 4 months old; given by a good friend. Not very well trained yet but nevertheless her looks would scare potential danger away. We lost piper some months ago after being with us for about 10 years. She died without sores but was on a hunger strike for a week. The vet took him and cremated it.
Adam was sad; we were sad for him. He lost a companion.
But sadder still as we are now facing another challenge. Adam is sick too. His hind legs cannot carry him and he cannot move now. Worst still, big sores are developing all over. Esther is especially sad and chided us for not giving him enough affection. So we called in the vet to assess. Even the vet said a chance is to be given and so we hospitalized him for 2 weeks.
All care and medication had been administered and his condition did not improve.
Dad visited him but he did not want to respond; the spirit is low.
So, the vet said to be brought home for a last chance for him to recover. Home environment may do him good .So, he was sent home and everyday it's intensive care. How does one handle this?
I must admit that I am not the one looking after his needs.
It's Allie.
We are afraid of making a cruel decision.
We had to do what is right until it is time for him to go.
So you see, it's heart breaking to possess especially when feelings are involved.
Adam will leave but I do not know when.
The dog has taught us to be kind and compassionate.
Daddy says dogs do not have souls.
So how do they go to heaven?
Sad is the word.
Pray we are able to handle another loss.
Not to have pain is not to have one.
Will we have another one?